No Air
May 16th, 2008 — Anu OluwadareIt’s 3:15am as I write this on my bed; it’s been a very hectic day for me. I have been going over the events of the past few days in my head over and over again and it seems that the one question I keep asking myself is – What Happened? It seems I have always been attracted to the Unattainable – the story of my life. I am not a very vocal person so what I do to send my message is through medium such as music. I find difficult to verbalize my emotions, don’t know if it’s normal, but that is the way I am. However here is a clue for the discerning – My mood and present state of mind is often revealed in the songs am playing at a given time, I guess for me, it’s my way of trying to reach out, I have always thought of myself as person who has his emotions under control, so naturally when they begin to wander off, I try to bring myself under control by burying myself in my work or doing something that will get my mind of the issue at hand, now don’t get me wrong, My emotions don’t wander often, I remember a statement my Mum made once .. “Anu, you should try to show a little more emotion, it’s not good to bottle up things inside”. You want to know what song I am playing now? It’s here, also this.